All Right

Every once and awhile I hear an Amy Grant song playing over the mall sound system and it always sends me to my playlist to divulge myself in some classic songs of hers. I was listening to her always relevant "Lead Me On" album and I came across a song of hers that suddenly means more to me right now than it ever has before. In the song she simply talks about the fact that no matter what happens in life everything is going to be alright. I started to get kind of choked up while singing along (which I have a hard time NOT doing with her songs) and I believe it is because I needed to hear it. So, I want to share the lyrics with you, too.

All Right
by Amy Grant

Looking out to the hills
To the setting sun
I feel a cold wind
Bound to come
Another change
Another end I cannot see
But your faithfulness to me is making it

[Chorus:]
All right
I fall down on my knees
Tell me that it's all right
You give me what I need
Years of knocking on heaven's door
Have taught me this if nothing more
That it's all right, what may come

I've heard it said
When the river's running high
You get to higher ground or you die
Well muddy waves of pain
Washed over me
And it only made me see it's gonna be

All right
I fall down on my knees
Tell me that it's all right
You give me what I need
Years of knocking on heaven's door
Have taught me this if nothing more
That it's all right, what may come

When will I learn there're no guarantees
What strengthens hope, my eyes will never see
But it won't be long
Till the faith will be sight
And the Heavens will say
It's all right

17 Weeks and 2 Days

So, I'm sitting here eating Kraft Dinner (definitely a FAV of Little Baby Wilson's...lol) realizing that it's been almost two weeks since I've posted! Well, everything seems to be going just fine. My belly is growing larger every week. It's a lot of fun, actually, not having to worry about holding your stomach in! Since I was younger my mom always taught me to "suck it in" which is honestly some of the best advice (and what many girls SHOULD know that don't.) So now I'm enjoying the freedom of not having to think about it! It's glorious!

According to books and websites LBW is about 5 inches long now!! That's about the size of a ball point pen (although I'm willing to bet he/she doesn't quite look that slim and narrow.) It's weight is about 5 ounces which is the weight of a turnip according to one site. By the end of next week it's about 7 ounces! This week it's a turnip and next week it's a green pepper. Sounds more like I'm simmering a stew than baking buns!

My ultrasound is only 6 DAYS AWAY!!! I've been counting that down since they booked it at my doctor's office. I always wanted to wait but now I've gotten myself so excited about knowing that there is no way I could possibly wait. I'm very impatient that way. Dan's excited to know too...he even got the day off work for it! Oh ya! My hubby got a job! He's training to be a teller at a credit union. Very exciting! So, Monday seems like it's really far away right now, but it will come! I hope I can sleep the night before!

Well, I've got batteries for the camera so I'll keep you updated with belly pics! Keep checking in!

15 Weeks and 5 days

I had my doctor's appointment today! I must say that it came quicker than I thought. Once I was there it seemed like I had just been there a week ago! A month can go by pretty quickly. So, my blood work from the last visit was all good. And I guess my urine was good, too, 'cause she never said any different. It's the one time when "negative" is a good word! LOL!

I got to hear Baby Wilson's heartbeat for the first time today. It definitely brought a big smile to my face. I guess I'm still waiting for it to "hit" me that there is a living, breathing baby in my belly. Even hearing the heartbeat I didn't tear up or anything. I guess maybe I'm very realistic and am not surprised by things like the heartbeat and the rumblings in my tummy. I'm expecting them so they don't really surprise me. It was still good to know that the heartbeat is average and all seems to be good! She mentioned that my uterus seems a bit big for how far along I am, but my mom said that they always told her the same thing with each child and her mom was told the same. So, I guess having a big uterus runs in my family! HAHAHA

So, two weeks from Monday (Mar. 2) I will have my ultrasound! My doctor said anytime on or after March 1st because I will be 18 weeks at that point and they were able to book me the day after that! I'm SUPER excited for that! If all goes well we will know whether Baby Wilson is a boy or a girl!!! That is definitely one thing that I am psyched about. I don't really care what we have, and I know it's very cliche to say that, but I really don't. I guess deep down I'm kind of hoping for a girl, but a boy would be wonderful too!! A little mini-me of my husband wouldn't be a bad thing! :P

Well, I'm off to bed...pretty tired! My parent's are coming to visit this weekend and I'm excited for that. I always like spending time with them. My mom and I might do some maternity clothes shopping...I wouldn't mind that! So, I will update again when I've got more to tell!

15 Weeks...Flutter Away!

Well, two days ago I felt the first rumblings of Baby Wilson. It was exciting!!! I was sitting on the couch in the morning and suddenly it felt like there were a million bubbles in my uterus...amazing! But even better, last night while I was lying in bed, I actually felt a flutter! Well, it felt more like my uterus jumped! My friend asked me this morning if it freaked me out, but it honestly didn't. It felt exactly like I imagined it would.

It really is incredible, though. Baby is about 4 inches long now and can bounce around and make faces! It's developing so quickly. Sometimes it seems like 9 months is a long time, but when you stop to think that a life is developed in that time it seems like it's not long enough! LOL! It's miraculous and I will never think otherwise.

I picked up a couple items the other day. I got a fleece sleeper and a bag outfit thing (not sure what they're called.) I know that we'll get lots of stuff from a baby shower and everything, but there's still that need to choose some things myself. Since we don't know the sex yet I'm going with gender neutral things. I work in a mall across from a children's clothing store and I can't tell you how hard it is! I want to go over every lunch break and buy 10 things! Unfortunately, my husband wouldn't be too pleased if I did. I have a feeling it is going to get harder after I know what we're having.

Speaking of knowing the sex, I have my doctor's appointment on Thursday this week and they'll book my ultrasound from there!! I'm going to ask them to get me in for it as early as they can! I'm too excited!! I'll update you after my appointment and let you know any new news!

13 1/2 weeks

Well, here I am! I'm in my second trimester!!! I felt like celebrating with a glass of wine, but my conscious (and the well-being of my baby) got the better part of me! LOL!

So, I'm pushing along here, waiting for so much to happen. I'm still waiting for my belly to pop/show. Although I have this feeling that once it starts it won't stop. I mean, that's how it works but I feel like I might have a good sized belly at the end of this thing. Right now I'm excited for that but, once I hit my 9th month I'm sure I'll be sick of the big belly! LOL!

I've starting thinking a lot about what my baby is going to look like. I want it to have blue eyes like Dan and I'm REALLY hoping for that! I wonder what kind of personality it's going to have, what kinds of food it will like, things like that. Will it like sports? Will it like music? I don't know, but I'm pretty excited to find out!!

11 Weeks...God is Good!

Well, I had a little scare the other day. Thursday night I had some spotting. Freaked me right out. I was literally sobbing thinking that it was all over. I called my wonderfully sweet and calm mother and she advised me to wait it out and see how it was in the morning. There was nothing I could do whether it was a miscarriage or not. (My body is on it's own timing and living it's own life right now...I'm pretty much on the sidelines through this thing...lol.) So, by the morning the bleeding was pretty much gone and was very light. That was a good sign. I called my doctor's office anyway and they advised me to go to Emergency to get an ultrasound just to make sure everything was okay. So, we did. 6 hours later we left the hospital very much relieved. They took blood to find out what type I am (O positive), gave me an internal exam (with 4 people in the room with me...ya, that wasn't awkward at all! :P) and a bedside ultrasound (they're not as clear as regular ones, but enough to show the heartbeat.) I was ALL smiles through the ultrasound, seeing my little baby move around. The doctor had to keep changing the position of the stick because it was moving so much...we'll see how much kicking I endure from this child later on in the pregnancy. The doctor was able to see the heartbeat flicker, and so could my husband, but the light was shining on the screen too much for me to see. But, I get another one either tomorrow or Tuesday (or both) and it will be an actual one. I'll even get a picture!! I'm SUPER excited for that!

In other news, my nausea is subsiding! YAY! I still feel it sometimes but, not as much. It comes and goes. It's more just that certain foods don't sound or smell appealing at all. The only problem with the nausea going away is that I'm getting hungry more often. Right now McDonald's sounds sooooooooooo good!!! It can be really hard to eat healthy sometimes when only one thing sounds appealing at all...sheesh!

So, I'm very thankful that everything turned out to be fine. I guess it happens to a lot of women, especially early on in pregnancy, but it never hurts to get it checked out...you never know! God is sooo good!

9 Weeks Down...31 To Go

I can't believe it's that many weeks left. I found out almost a month ago and it seems like I've been pregnant forever already! I think it'll start to go faster once I start showing. Plus it will be a huge relief to finally let work know...only a couple more weeks. I'm also excited for my first appointment! I'm hoping that I'll be able to hear the heartbeat. I've been reading that there's a chance I might not be able to hear it this early (depending on the position of the baby and the "padding" on my stomach...hahaha!) They said if not, definitely by week 14 I can! That's so exciting!

Right now I'm trying to make the best food choices. It's hard when barely anything sounds appealing, even healthy food. So far fresh veggies (which normally I LOVE) do not appeal to me at all! Once I start eating them, though, they taste really good. I haven't gained any weight yet, but I'm sure I will. I'm kind of bummed because in the last three months I've lost about 20 pounds and I've been so excited about it...then I got this news! LOL! Well, God's timing not mine, right?
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So, I'm trucking along. I had to call in sick yesterday because my stomach was really churning, even after I ate (which usually makes me feel better), but so far I've only thrown up three times. I think I don't have it too bad. A friend of mine had to be on medication throughout her whole pregnancy for morning sickness because it was so bad...I am very thankful right now. I have one month left in my first trimester and boy will I be glad when it is over.

Another thing I've been dealing with is constant tiredness. I'm not always bone-tired, but it's there. The other night I slept for THIRTEEN HOURS and I was STILL tired the next day!! I guess I needed it! LOL. They say it'll go away in the second trimester and then return for the last...grrrreat! Right now I'm just looking forward to that little break!

Well, I'll stop rambling about it for now! I'll update you again in a couple weeks after my doctor's appointment!